After bringing home Mariya, we knew that we wanted to adopt again. Yes, we have changed the life of a child, but she has changed us in more way than we could have ever imagined. And so, it was no great surprise to anyone that Dustin and I have decided to adopt again!
As we originally started the process, through friends, we had found out about a little boy in Ethiopia (around 5 years old) who was in an very unusual position; he was being relinquished by his mother and would be coming up for adoption with an expedited schedule to get him out of the country. All foreign fees were waived (which would save us $9,000). What a blessing!
We truly felt that this was God encouraging us to start the process again when we were hesitant and concerned about where the funds would come from, but it seemed to us that God was showing us that He can make all things happen. Therefore, we should not allow obstacles such as money to deter us from doing what he commands of us. And so, we began the adoption process again.
We expedited the process and ordered all our original documents for our dossier, and on the day that we submitted our finalized home study to our adoption agency, we were informed that the child was no longer available due to a major complication. I should have prefaced this by saying that this entire situation was not typical or normal; this child was not even officially adoptable when we set our hearts on adopting him, and this would not happen under normal circumstances.
However, once we received the news that he would not be available for adoption, we were bombarded with almost every emotion imaginable. While a part of us wanted to be happy for the child and his mother that apparently something in their situation must have changed to allow them to stay together, we were also devastated and a bit confused. Why? Why did this little boy "disappear?" Why did we rush through the process? What were we supposed to do now? What did all of this mean? We really thought that we were following God's plan. We had prayed about the entire process, and now, we felt a little lost.
Sometimes when we think that we have a plan, we are humbled by the realization that we are not in control; we are not always in the know, but God has a plan. His plan and His timing are perfect. He knew that this would happen, and he knows what will happen next. While we struggled with the not knowing, we also found comfort in knowing that it would be revealed to us, and God is in control.
So, as we have already completed our home study, immigration paperwork, and most of the paperwork for our dossier. Now, we pray for direction, for clarity, and discernment.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6